Cape Coral

So Im on vacay in Cape Coral, FL with Rick at his grandpas house. So far, its been really relaxing. I didnt even have a panic attack on the plane. I kinda freaked out a little bit, but no full blown panic attack :) I can't even describe how amazing that feels. I just re-read my last blog and realised how negative it was.
Things with Rick are amazing, and Im so excited we got to come down here today. He mentioned today how quickly he asked me to come with to FL, and how crazy that was, and I said the same thing. But it wasnt in a bad way. Its like, I just liked you so much, I knew it would be good.

Yesterday we went out to lunch, took kind of a nap, laid around and read by the pool, had dinner (gpa had a picnic-bbq'd chicken, potato salad, and broccoli) then hung around some more and just relaxed and had a lazy day. Today we went swimming, went to best buy (he's working on gpas computer) came back, worked on the computer some, went out to get food and ended up coming back with margarita mix and no food, grilled steaks and mashed potatos, and then gorged ourselves, lol. Then we went swimming again (complete with sex in the pool) and are relaxing/reading til bedtime. I think tomorrow we're going out on the boat, and sometime this week we're going to the beach. Friday is the flea market, Saturday is the twins game, we leave late monday and head back to minnesota and st cloud.



Things with my room mates are ALOT better. I talked to L and found out why she was upset and have been working on it, and it seems like she has too. I talked to R and things only have become more heated, at least on my end, but I think she has been doing better in regards to me. With D, things were never bad, lol, but we have bonded over complaining about R. So that's a plus. I'm just trying harder to spend time with L and make sure that we're on the same page with things. I love her, and wouldn't want anything to change that. IDK where I'd be without her in my college life.

Im so happy and relaxed down here, I think I need to move. Or at least just give myself time away from work and school and go somewhere warm. I think the snow and cold makes me rigid. I havent been able to say a single bad thing down here, about my mood or anyone else's. Except the bitch who yelled at me for cutting in line at the airport bathroom. EXCUSE ME, Ive been up all night, and I didn't know that you sitting with your fucking open suitcase in the middle of the entryway constituted a line. wench. I hope she fell down.

But aside from that, I cant complain. My bf is amazing, my roomie relationships are getting better, im actually focusing on school now, and work is pretty good. Messed up in some areas, but pretty good.

I still dont know what to do about this summer, whether I should stay in St Cloud or go back to the cities. I want to make it worth my time to be in St Cloud, and take some classes, but I dont know what classes are offered yet. I might think about taking some nursing classes, or possibly some classes to finish off my minor and then just worry about my major next year. It would be awesome if I could take my anatomy class this summer, but Ill have to see. I just really hate school right now. It just sucks. I wanna be done, ya know? Not even graduate, just be done, and go lay around and do nothing. My brain is fryed lately.

I should head out though, Im getting kinda tired and wanna read some of this book Im reading...

Anyway, to contrast my last post, I'm really not that unhappy anymore. I think I was just in a funk that day. Im happy with where I am in life, who I am, and what's going on. PS...he's getting closer to the 'L' word. Today he kept doing things and then they were "love taps, love flicks, love...etc". Then I said, Oh you love me now? And he said "uh huh". So he's agreeing to it, but hasn't actually said it yet. That's ok, I love him too. :)